My earliest memory is of leaving church with my Mother. Mass was FINALLY over and I was dragging my poor Mother as fast as my two little legs could carry me to our local store to buy penny sweets and whatever toy or comic book I could sweet talk her into getting me. Most of … More Chapter 1 ~ Childhood Innocence.
I need to be honest with myself. I am never going to have a healthy relationship with food. I have struggled with food from the age of eight. Anything from emotional eating binge eating, depriving myself to self sabotage if a meal plan actually starts to work. I abuse food all the time. I’ve … More In order to change, you have to get real with yourself.
Do you ever sit alone in your bedroom and just cry.. Sometimes it is at night when you are alone, sometimes it’s in the morning when you need to cry and get the hurt out before you can slap on your happy face and show a mask to the world.. All my life I have worn … More Are you wearing a happy mask?
I started a YouTube Channel 🙂 I have wanted to do this for a long time but I was nervous. I don’t have any equipment, lighting and I don’t know how to edit.. Haha. Only they were all excuses for me to not start. I am a newbie, I can’t be perfect right away. The … More I’m on YouTube!
I have slowly been killing myself over the last ten months. Working a job that although I liked elements, it has more negative than positive. I was training like crazy for a body building competition. From the minute I woke up till the minute I went to bed I stressed over the thoughts of “did I train … More Are you killing yourself slowly?
You know me by now, honest to a default. I have no idea if this post is going to help anyone. I feel it is more of a post that may help me move on and may allow you the reader to feel less alone but there will not be pearls of wisdom everywhere. From … More Being Bullied Growing Up.
Walking home from the gym yesterday I found myself really “rocking out” to music. Mouthing the words, making faces and doing little air guitar moves. I was really in the zone, enjoying that moment in time. For a second I stopped and said to myself, “people will think I am nuts if I don’t stop this”. … More Have you met yourself yet?