If you don’t follow me on Facebook or Instagram, you may not know that I have several tattoos. Every tattoo has a special meaning to me. One tattoo especially. I have Pikachu on my wrist with my friends name (a trace from her signature on a letter) underneath. She sadly died the day after her 24th birthday, two years ago this Tuesday. We knew each other for seven years. We both suffered with an eating disorder and we both recovered together. I don’t know how much of an impact I had on her life but it is because of her, I learned to love myself again…………………………..
When I found out she was murdered my whole world stopped. I would never get to see her, hug her or talk to her again. The person I shared my whole life with was gone and there was nothing I could do about it. She loved Pokemon and Pikachu was her favourite. She had t-shirts, hats, onesies, teddies, everything. I along with several of her other friends all got tattoos to honour her memory. I have never seen that much love shown for anyone. I doubt she ever knew just how loved she was (and still is). Since getting the tattoo I get so many looks. At first I was second guessing if I should have got it. I’ve since realised that anyone who judges my tattoo does not know the meaning behind it, nor have they taken the time to ask. People have looked at me and said “What did you get that THING for?”. As if it was the most stupid thing to do. They quickly change their tone when I explain why…………………………………………………
I now enjoy (for lack of a better word) when I get these looks. It is an opportunity for me to be confident within myself. I know it’s meaning. I do not need anyone else’s approval to validate who I am. In a way it is like she is still here with me. Helping me to love and accept myself every day. If I see someone with a “crazy” tattoo, piercing or hair, I want to ask them why they have it. It is an expression of who they are. By asking why, we can learn a lot about the person, even if they are a complete stranger. Don’t be so quick to judge because even a simple Pokemon can have such a deeper meaning. Xxx